How consciously making little, permanent changes seem to always lead to big, unexpected, awesome transformations. After several years of actively experiencing it (looking back, can see it in my earliest memories), I've finally accepted it as anything but flukes. Looking back, they feel downright magical, fabulously miraculous.
Tuli Kupferberg caught what I embrace ~
"When patterns are broken, new worlds emerge."
The scary thing about breaking patterns - what makes a shocking number of sane & reasonable humans stay snug in a limiting status quo - is not being able to foresee WHAT new worlds will emerge.
As I approach my birthday, am struck anew with my own umpteen decades of missing a core article of faith I heard from my earliest years - when we permanently change patterns for the better, spiritual elbow room is opened up for All That Is to renovate our core loves/desires.
Sure, I knew that before, at least in theory - impossible to guess how many times I wrote it down or shouted it out as the right answer in Dan Goodenough's or OdeO's or Bruce Rogers' religion class. Today, I know it as experienced fact. A fact, it feels to me, that can't really be shared with others because it's so.... out there. Has to be experienced to be fully, really grasped.
The life that leads to heaven is found in a life lived without any thought of a reward, including getting to a pleasant Here After. We need to be good & helpful & caring & vulnerable because that's the right way to be; because whatever we describe as a Higher Power created us to be helpful, not hurtful. But to do things because they will please Someone, will get us into His/Her good graces, never made sense to me. Not as a child, not as an adult.
To be present in my biggest way possible means putting one foot in front of the other, taking small steps, looking around to ensure the direction I want to reach is the way I'm going. Easy to write, a challenge to live.
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