Monday, November 12, 2012

Just Me

Dawned on me Sunday morning, during Jeremy's excellent & massively timely readings & sermon, that feeling blue can be a positive thing. 

When it's kept from spiraling into full-fledged depression, using it instead to trigger the "ah ha!" that something needs addressing, it's amazing how much it can accomplish, things that feeling upbeat & cheery just can't touch. 

FACT:  i am really good with just a light tap of friendship.  
OUTCOME:  loads of people know my face, even though 99.9% haven't really connected at a rich discourse level.  There's great value in that light tap, that recognition - because they know that I'm recognizing THEM, too.  And sometimes that simple, fleeting recognition can make a difference in a person's day.
  
Turns out that what I  thought of as a failing is just me BEing. 


I'm always going to be someone who can't do a stint at the college alumni office w/o having nibblings on hand for my BACNC "babies" (students and - at my age - teachers & staff), who inevitably forgets to keep my ANC "crafternoon" receipts to give Brenda for reimbursement, who is O! Be Joyful to have "adopted" the BACS 7th grade girls. 

Yeah, I didn't spend my earlier years developing a rich store house of interesting information. Can't go back & redo them now. How dorky dumb would it be to weep & wail what i didn't develop and diss the pretty neat stuff i did?? 

Looked down yesterday at my feet & found they're poised on yet another brand new starting line, another new beginning.  Tie up those sneakers & let's get going!

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